How My Daughters See Me
The last couple of weeks have been very focusing for me. The week before I started homeschooling, I sat down to figure out a schedule and had a dreadful time doing it. Finally it all came together but only after I sat down and did some uber-prioritizing. Funny thing: when you figure out which things you care about the most and then focus on those things, you’re a lot happier! Isn’t that brilliant? And it’s taken me a mere thirty-three years to realize that.
It’s not like I’ve been relaxing on the beach and that’s why I’m happy. In fact, I’ve been working my butt off even more than I was before (which I didn’t really think was possible because I’m generally prone to massive overworking myself than underworking); but it’s that satisfying kind of work that you don’t mind doing because you know you’re good at it, you’re doing the job you were born to do, and the people you work for love you.
Two small cases in point:
1. The other day the older three or four kids and I were making cookies to share with the company that was coming over later that evening (lest you think we would make a whole four dozen cookies and eat them all ourselves… hehe.. moving right along..). Trinity and Anika started discussing my hair and wanted to know why it has all those colors in it. Huh? My hair is a really dark brown and fairly homogenously so. What colors? Oh you know Mom, the shiny silver hairs. Why are those there?
When I told them they were there because I was getting old, they all laughed like that was the most ridiculous idea they had ever heard. Then they told me that the silver ones were beautiful and they wished they could have some. Huh. My computer never tells me it thinks my gray hair is beautiful (it does give me gray hair).
To tell the truth, between my Dad telling me all through my childhood that he couldn’t wait to have gray hair because it is a “crown of splendor, attained by a righteous life” (Pro 16:31) and my daughters telling me how pretty it is and why can’t they have it, having gray hair doesn’t really bother me. When I get older, I’m secretly planning to have long dark hair streaked with gray that eventually turns white like the Italians do instead of lopping it all off into short hair like Americans. It’s so much more Old World beauty. Hmmm, I may have put too much thought into this already.
2. This afternoon I was trying to put together a meal plan for the rest of the term so I don’t have to think about it for another five weeks when Kyra bonked herself again and ended up on my lap. She’s in the middle of a growth spurt and seems constantly surprised to find her arms and legs sticking out further than they used to. She’s sort of a giant bruise at the moment. Anyway, she noticed the mole on my neck and wanted to know what it was. After I explained that, she decided that she wanted one too. After I showed her that she did, in fact, have a mole on the back side of her very own knee, she seemed much happier and bounced off to go play.
This has been very gratifying for me. The kids don’t care that I have gray hairs popping up or a wierd mole on my neck. In fact, they seem to see these as desirable things, which I’m fairly sure is because they are attached to someone that they love. So, lucky me! Yes, there are frustrations. Henry has teeth coming in and cries all day. I now get up at six and don’t stop zooming until I sit down to scarf down some lunch at 1:30.
At that point, the kids all see me sitting down and decide that means that the ears are open for business so they can tell me their weird dreams from last night (Georgie: me & Trinity were chased by a gorilla), long-winded stories about Bionicle wars that I hope to never care about, a recap of an entire SpongeBob episode so I would get the context of the three second part they thought was really funny. Hmmm, actually those were all Georgie. Today I finally explained to him what time I got up, what I had been doing all day (most of it was teaching the kids), and that now I was going to sit down to lunch where I would like to sit in peace and read the newspaper so please go play somewhere else. That seemed to help considerably.
Overall though, I just feel more content and relaxed. My smile is back. I missed it.
Rachel

Fiendish friend for effusive fun!
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